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In year 11 English class, the theme was "Change". Everything I wrote was framed around how the characters dealt with/experienced "change". It was ultimately convoluted and rubbish. I received good marks because I understood what they wanted me to say; That change effects people in different ways, it is inevitable, it can be terrifying. It isn't until now that I fully appreciate how true these facts are.

Recently I've been experiencing just how much can change in your life with very little notice. I've been doing my best, but it really has been hard to cope. Not necessarily because any of the changes were bad (although my head certainly had a difficult time focussing on the positive aspects and not catastrophising everything), but because there is so much uncertainty. And uncertainty is something I'm not good at. I like knowing where I'm going to be in a year, what my life will look like in a month.

If anything, this has been good for me and I'm starting to realise that now. I don't need to be worrying about where I'll be/what I'll be doing in a year, or even a months time. So yes. From now on, I'm going to spend less time worrying about the future/things I can't control, and more time focussing on right now and doing things that make me happy. An excellent illustration (courtesy of Octopus Design) of my new mantra:

A friend of mine told me whilst I was stressing my mind off about who knows what, that I should "Hold it lightly". Whatever it is, hold it lightly. That's another good one that I like to remember, because I tend to dramatise or catastrophise things, stress and worry over minor issues, all the while focussing entirely on the negative aspects of a situation. And in the end, life is too short to stress over things that you can't control.

So. What makes me happy? That's the next thing I have to figure out. I have some good ideas of where to start though and will likely share them here. I'm excited to be feeling so positive about things, because I honestly feel like I'm opening my eyes for the first time and that I've been blindly stumbling around for the past month. No more feeling sad and sorry for myself. Much more positivity and fun. ♥